woke up depressed today
no reason to awake

put the dishes in the washer
fed me some processed food

sat down in front of a screen
thought of my obligations today

glanced over at the window
the sun sneaking through the cover

remembered it's up to me
drew the veil to the side

looked far across our vast soil
sun making a big sky blue

be a human today
be alive and involved in this beautiful miracle of existence

think no more of your role acquired and enforced in this society
leave your routine behind and
let's run across the surface of the earth today

grant awareness of the breath
embrace our place today

drink of the water
taste of the fruit
indulge in the laughter
share the moment with a companion

I took a look at the world
and I awed
unfathomable gratitude
for I have been included in the mix

you tell me what I should do
what is fair?

what do you think would be correct
for me to do now

would regression on my part
be in your favor

giving up
in mine

maybe I'm just holding on
to loving
what is now just a fake idea

if you would cry before
when you felt it's sting coming on

rather numb the pain again
and cry to me there after

what happens to my tears?
will you ever acknowledge those

I carry around a guilt
like I've caused something more

I'll probably give you a call

you'll probably suck me dry

cry

get high

let us bid our good byes.

when you've had enough
give us a call
when you've really had enough

not enough for the night
or for the year

when you've really had enough

because I take what I can get
and you take all of me

I deserve better
you don't deserve me

I wish I still knew you
that things hadn't changed

but I have to accept it's all that's in you
your only anwer in the rain

I will never act as you
won't venture the pain I can cause

can't you step outside
and really take a look

can you please stop this time
take another breath

don't inhale the smoke
before you think about the rest

I'm not in your room
but I'm in another

please don't ask of me
not ever again

please just let me go
you've given me no choice